Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Revival


I'm tired. And in my head I see Madelynn Kahn singing on stage, vamping for an audience of drunken cowboys in a Mel Brooks spoof (oh lord how I love Mel Brooks movies and Madelynn Kahn in them) singing about how tired she is...I feel as though if I could sit still for five minutes and just not think or do or feel , how rested I would be. If the phone wouldn't ring or papers wouldn't rustle , if tv's were silent and Doctor's appointments didn't have to be kept...if I could make my mind a blank page and not anticipate the writing that would fill it...if weeds didn't need to be plucked from the pristine beds I prepared, if supper didn't have to be cooked and dishes loaded into the dishwasher because lord I am tired. If clothes didn't have to be washed, dried put away only to be dirtied again, if floors didn't need washing and furniture dusted, if only there was a place for everything and everything was in its place. If only all the responsibilities that I have taken on in my life could be as easily laid down as they were taken up. I have decided to learn yoga so that I can learn to relax. I don't think I have ever relaxed in my entire life. Mama called it being on pins and needles. I can't be still (not in a hyperactive way) I'm a machine of perpetual motion. Even when I am still, I am moving. My mind never stops and some things it conjures up are pleasant to think on, some things that enter into the abyss of my imagination scare hell out of me. I've seen too much, gone to far to turn back and there's still to much to be done. And so I'm tired. But now I look forward to a good nights sleep where responsibilites belong to someone else and houses care for themselves and those who lie sleeping within their walls. And in the morning when I arise with the sun I'll be refreshed and ready to take on the world again. I won't feel this tired again for some time. But when I do, I promise I'll tell you. Because the telling of a thing is the releasing of a thing. And the releasing of a thing is such a pleasure.
ps
for those who would love to see Madelyn singing "I'm Tired" go to Lee's spot at http://chrysalisdreams.blogspot.com/ She has graciously looked for the spot on youtube and posted for me. I have some really great friends.

42 comments:

Pam said...

Oh I know what you mean. I have the biggest problem turning off that "switch" in my head sometimes and I find my mind speeding along daily. I hope you get some rest and relaxation soon.

NeereAnDear said...

Get some rest sweet one... its important ...

HUGS
JO

Lee said...

Yoga! My sister does it before and after her running. I do it occasionally to straighten out my spine. I recommend All Day Yoga w/ Rodney Yee. The workouts are easy enough for beginners. Especially the AM Yoga routine which is slow and relaxing. 20 minutes and you feel limbered up.

Love the fact that you like Mel Brooks films. I love them too. Can't decide which one I like best but the one I remember the best is History of the World. It was hilarious.

Rest well, my friend!

Hugs!

justabeachkat said...

Oh, I soooo know what you mean. I never sit still. I'm always in motion. That's another reason I don't watch much TV...there's always something I need/want to do. I go go go until I literally drop. And I'm almost to that point right now. Off to bed.....

Hugs!
Kat

Seamus said...

Here's hoping you do find some rest and respite from the perpetual motion! :)

Uncle Joe said...

I'm afraid to take the Austen heroine test.
Do you have anything more macho. Like a Batman test?

thanks for the visit.
Have a great day!!!

Jodie Adams said...

I am having the same problem, resting while so much needs to be done around this place. I know I should be resting when the baby is but it's hard when the dishes and laundry are calling my name. I am trying my best. If you learn a trick let me know I would be intested to find out how to slow down this mind of mine too. Try to rest some, a nap here and there won't hurt anything. Take care. You are in my thoughts. Love to you and Uncle Wallace.

Uncle Joe said...

By Gotham City, I AM Batman!

Bax said...

I've been there sweetie! I love being tired after working hard...but I do not love when my mind won't turn off! The goofy thing! Doesn't it know when I need rest???
I hope you get lots of needed rest and are feeling great soon!

Jan

LivingTheLife said...

OH!! my we ARE sisters...seperated at birth...I KNOW what you are saying...I really, really know. I can sit...but never sit still or sit w/o my mind going in a thousand different places...and oh lawzy mercy girl...some of the places it goes...hmmmm...it's hell for sure!

My doc did give me some great advice...I've yet to try it...but it sounded good at the time. I told him I wanted to start yoga, too...but found it hard to shut my mind off...that I just couldn't...I mean geez...I might hear something or catch something out of the corner of my eye OR I might be working on a solution in my head for all the strife in America...or World hunger or something equally as challenging...so I would not be able to "empty" my mind so to speak (sadly some think it is already empty)...he told me to go someplace in my mind that I loved...the ocean, a rainforest, whatever...and just think of the sounds I love...the ocean crashing...the seagulls, children playing...whatever it was that I loved about this place...and just envision that along with the sounds...not to try to keep my mind quiet...b/c that is impossible for some of us...just go somewhere in your mind...and find your happy place. Ok...I SAID I haven't tried it...but I'm willing to...and I'm sure with medication...it could work and be a much happier place...Get some rest!

Blessings...
Teresa

Mima said...

I used to do yoga and it really is wonderfully relaxing, a great way to switch off as you concentrate on your breathing. I know what you mean about not being able to turn your mind off - I do that well or not, and when I am not so well it is really unconstructive as it just sends me into a spiral of worry - hopeless. One of the best ways I find of dealing with it is to write lists (I am really bad, I have so many, but I do normally get the things done eventually.

I hope that you have a really good nights rest, and that tomorrow brings you some peace.

JanaBanana said...

Welcome to my world...
I cant stop either..
When the Dr tell's me to go home and rest, take it easy, my mind it saying "Oh gosh I need to get home and make my bed, I left in a hurry and didnt do that.. oh and that floor needs mopped!"


BTW~ Kara is GORGEOUS!

Jeanne said...

Would a hug help? {{{HUGS}}}Do share too we'll support you.

Jamie Dawn said...

Were you too tired to spit when you wrote this post?
If so, then you were definitely tired.
I hope you are feeling chipper and full of energy now.
I like the idea of a house that cares for itself though.
I think I'll try and dream about that tonight.
I'll try and add a tree that grows money into my dream as well, too, in addition.
:-)

Minnesotablue said...

I've often thought about taking yoga classes. I wworked with a psychiatrist fro India a few years back and she taught me a feew moves but I haven't followed up. I'm going to do so. My mind seems to never turn off, I hate that feeling.

Minnesotablue said...

Whoops! My thoughts were getting ahead of me again and I screwed up my message.

Honest to Ya~Ya said...

Gosh gal...I'm tired this evening too! I'm tired, sore and sunburned...spent the day outdoors with my youngest grand! Oh but what a good time we had!
I won't have to be rocked to sleep tonight fer shore!

windycorner said...

From a fellow perpetual motion machine-yoga sounds like a good idea. I never realized how jumpy I was until one day in church, Hubby put his hand on my knee and said,"Sit still!" Here's to lullabies, warm milk, and feather beds.
Holley

The Diva's Thoughts said...

Well I hope you get some serious rest my dear.

Brenda said...

Amen sister you just described me. I never know what the word relax means.

Penny @ Lavender Hill Studio said...

Oh Sandi...Here is wishing you a wonderful nights sleep and hoping you awake refreshed and ready to face this crazy non stop world we live in!

I have wanted to take some yoga classes recently. I need to stretch. I am so stiff now. I used to be so flexible...
Hugs,
Penny

Jeni said...

Once upon a time, a long, long time ago, I used to have energy abounding. Today -not so much! Actually, usually it is more like NO energy except every now and again my brain will decide suddenly to engage -going in 40 different directions at warp speed until I can't focus on anything and I go take a xanex till it all calms down again. It's a royal pain in the dupa though. Loved that you mentioned that song -and Mel Brooks movies too - love 'em! I knew exactly which number you were referring too when you mentioned "I'm Tired!" Too doggone funny! I think I've seen virtually EVERY film Mel Brooks has made. He's fantastic! Insane, but just so darned funny!

Stacey said...

Me too! I'm tired....let's take a nap. Wait...I have to finish my typing for deadline in the am. And I'm doing what? Mmmhmmm blogging. Sigh. I can't help myself.

Naw...Columbia, MO, just plain old MO. It's about a two hour drive from Kansas City (I live in a KC burb).

I'll definitely bring back something fun to blog about....Baptist ministers can be very exciting, I'm sure. Okay probably not, but I'll find a way to make it sound like they are! xoxo

Kari & Kijsa said...

May your tomorrow be a blessed one...with plenty of rest and sunshine.

smiles, kari & kijsa

Lee said...

Good morning, Sandi! Thanks for adding the PS. I've already met Jo.

Hugs!

Les Becker said...

I LOVE Mel Brooks - Blazing Saddles is a special favourite.

If it helps, you might want to consider visiting flylady.net... you know for the "housework vs tired" thing - it made an incredible difference for me.

Yoga is the one thing you should keep up - when the rest of my workouts go to hell, yoga keeps me sane.

Vee ~ A Haven for Vee said...

Hope that morning found you refreshed and ready to start all over again. Sounds as if you need a serious lounging day with a good book, a tall cool drink, and some sleepy cats. Does Mac cook?

Mima said...

Sandi, just wanted to let you know that my Mum has been there loads, and they will let her do a bit which is great, but no-one else in the family other than me is near enough to help, and I am no use at all, I can't get to them, and they can't get to me (Grampa isn't well enough). I am hoping though that this up-turn will continue, and I will be able to make it over there.

Charles Gramlich said...

"Young Frankenstein" is of of my top two comedies of all time, the other being Team America. Loved Ms. Kahn in Young Frankenstein.

Thanks for stopping by my blog the other day. SOrry it took a while to reciprocate, but I've been as tired as you are in this post for a few days. Grading tests and papers.

San said...

Sandy, you are so right about telling a thing to release it. Now if we could just mop the floors verbally...that's a yucky task IMO. Thank goodness I'm married to a man who, like you, is in perpetual motion and is not scared of a mop.

Meditation is a form of yoga. And when I do it, it helps my mind stop spinning.

San said...

P.S. Sorry I spelled you name with a "y." The minute I clicked, I saw what I'd done, SandI

San said...

And now I forgot to put the R at the end of "your" and I didn't put a period after SandI (with a BIG I to emphasize the correct spelling.)

Guess I need some rest too. OM.

PAT said...

Hi Sandi
Hope you get a good night's sleep.

I was up in the wee small hours of the morning. Between Midnight and 3 AM this morning. I need to definitely practice meditation. I did a load of towels and sat here at the computer then went upstairs and turned on the TV, then turned it off. Finally fell asleep. When I wakened it was daylight and I thought, WOW I had a good night's sleep. It was just after 6AM! Tuesday is J's surgery. I'll be up all night until that is over and he is home! I keep thinking if I meditate, I can put all those running thoughts and lists and things out of my mind, perhaps.

Hope you get some much needed rest this weekend!
Pat

Susie Q said...

Okay now. I have that song in MY head!! With that silly accent! : ) Loved her.
I do know where you are coming from dear Sandi. Some days I just can't do it. I have fibro and I also get so tired at times. Some things just have to slide. : (
But this old mind never stops...I try but it keeps ticking away at things. Drives us silly doesn't it?

You get some rest this weekend...that is important too!

Love ya,
Sue

Wanda said...

Sometimes you just need to let it all go. Read a book, watch TV, just something. The dust, dishes, laundry and everything else will still be there. The Brownies aren't likely to show up and do it for us, but we can always do it later when we're more refreshed and able to take on the world. Sometimes an energy drink or some High Energy pills help. ;-)

JanaBanana said...

Hi Sandi :) When you get a chance read my latest blog... I hope you will join in !

joan said...

Hi Sandi,

I love this post. You just wrote so well of how alot of us feel. I hope you got some rest and feel great!

Jeff B said...

I think you just described heaven. i can totally relate to your constant motion. There are times when I wish there were 36 hours in a day to do all the things that interest me, but then I realize if that were true, I'd want 48.

david mcmahon said...

It's called being switched on, Princess of Perpetual Motion!!!

smilnsigh said...

Hope this tired, is just a passing thing...

Mari-Nanci

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